when reality hits.

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Good morning all!
hope everyone’s day goes amazing.
focus on yourselves and prosper in your lives,
ignore negative energy,people stay positive
and drink some coffee.
don’t let depression and anxiety take over your day.

what are my plans today?
study, do homework and hopefully have lunch later with my mom.
what are your plans today?
leave me a comment on what helps you deal with anxiety & depression

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Real Talk .

Ok so the past few day’s have seriously been so hectic. work and school literally take up all my time. I find myself contemplating too much and to the point where I stress myself out so much that I either get sick or will just stay in bed.
I’m suppose to be studying right now , but obviously I’m not haha.
tomorrow i work both jobs and have 3 test’s to turn in.
on top of that I’m planning a baby shower for my brother and his girlfriend. ‘I’m super
exited about it but it’s just a lot of stuff all at once.  Adulting is hard.

 

I’m 24 years old and I have no idea what I am doing.
I work 2 jobs , I love them and I am going to school
I have only had 1 boyfriend ever. and I am a hopeless romantic.

how can I be a hopeless romantic if I have only been in one relationship?
Honestly, I don’t know. It’s all the movies I guess .
I always thought that when I got older I would have my life figured out but I don’t. I thought I would be married with two kids ( a boy and girl) and they would curly hair and be smart asses. but when In reality I cant even find a guy to give me the time of day.
I’m paying off two credit cards and a car payment and a phone bill and all the other bullshit I have to pay for .

Is there something wrong with me ? why can I find a nice guy like Laura jean did ? you know from the best movie ever!.

Reality it fucking sucks.
Adulting sucks it just does.

rant done
krista out .

 

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Hey y’all,

Today was a long one .

Woke up , laid in bed for about an Hour until my lazy ass decided to get up . Made myself some breakfast ( fluffy waffles with strawberries and raspberries w/ wiped-cream) not really healthy but it sure did taste good .

What’s your favorite breakfast food?

Any who ,

After that, I read a little bit . Right now I’m reading Stephan king ” MR. Mercedes ” I’m right in the middle . It’s pretty good ,

I just ended up making myself a cup of coffee make that 4 cups hahah , don’t judge me I know I know , but if I don’t get my coffee I’ll be crazy all day and we can’t have that , by the end of the day I realized how much I didn’t do today , it was pretty lazy other than going around town and trying to find a place to sit down for a sec and scroll through my insta feed while my friend flirts with the guys at a coffee house . While we where trying to find a place to eat haha . But what can I say ?

life has be by that balls right now .

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Growing up , I was free-spirited. I was scared of nothing, I would bring in my horses from my back yard and have lunch with them in my laundry room while I sat on top of the washing machine , I would take my pet snake out of its aquarium and let it roam around in my room while my mom was asleep (she really didn’t like me doing that ) but I was so fearless. I played soccer for a few years up until my freshman year of high school, I tried out for plays, I liked being around different types of people , I got along with just about everybody, But behind all that I was consistently being bullied, being told I was ugly, Fat , I got called “thunder thighs” and I have been told I was not meant to be on this earth several times. I got harassed , followed home , jumped, threatened . I struggled with self harm starting in 6th grade up to my junior year. I felt so bad like I was disappointing everyone that I knew.  I just started to involve myself with other things like partying, drinking a lot etc.  I hated myself for a very long time  always feeling like I shouldn’t be here. when I was a junior, I Became home schooled , I figured the bullying would stop because I wasn’t around those people anymore but, I was still dealing with harassment on-line.  I started to find myself, I made a tumblr account and I would see all these posts about girls like me who have dealt with the same things I had been dealing with, I started to gain confidence in myself  I started being myself and not worrying about what everyone else’s opinions of me where  I started to love myself and my body. that’s how I became to be body positive , and love myself. I made a deal with myself that I would never listen to people sending hatred to other people about their bodies’, ever again. now I’m 23 working fulltime in a salon, my confidence in myself is 100 and I love my body . I love all my curves . I love who I am now and who I am going to be in the future, if you are struggling with any of the same things I have , just know you will find yourself and it always gets better, you are beautiful. every woman on this planet is a goddess , no matter what size color,shape,religion,sexual orientation etc.. you are PERFECT just the way that you are. fuck everyone else’s opinions of you , SLAY GIRL SLAY. post a selfie of you ,let people know that nothing can bring you down . women need to empower other women because self hate is one of the reasons why people are not comfortable to be themselves. Being yourself is the best you , that you can be.
Be confident ,because too many days are wasted comparing ourselves to others and wishing to be something that we aren’t. Everybody has their own strengths and weaknesses ,and it is only when you accept everything you are and aren’t , that you will truly succeed . you are good enough . I am good enough  love your body. because its the only one you have .

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